My Diary of... something

hour 22 of stronger than usual self hate, ive cut, ive slept and im trying to distract myself but nothings working. im supposed to be going out for a romancy meal with jess in a few hrs but i dont think i can, my moods too fractured. the slightest thing will set me off and im scared of just thinking about going out.

ive upset jess because she really wanted to go out.

useless useless useless. i shouldve cut a little further down and got my wrists.

jessikas sick:( very sickl :(:(

its like a bad flu and im in no shape to look after her. in fact she came over to visit to look after me because im still in the walking upstairs tires me out bit of srs recovery.

:( i wish i could do more for her

cries

JESS COMES TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and she arrives for her week long visit too;)

was beautifully wonderfuly camp.

( Simon Cabaret Show  )

PRETTTTTTTYYYYY

now like most people who have srs in thailand i decided to raise an evil army of giant lizards to try and take over the world.

( THE WORLD WIL BE MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  )

( KNEEL PATHETIC HUMANS!  )

( ive been cheating on jess with this HOT PIECE OF PLASTIC ASS  )

Has everything you could want. even silk skin. yuuuuuuuum

patong beach is cool. getting stithes out, not so much. but theres not been any problems, so yay!

having pub grub in an irish bar in thailand rules, near the top of the surrealism chart.

im debating whether to see a kick boxing match or see a ladyboy cabaret next time im in patong.

their being uploaded to here

http://s6.photobucket.com/albums/y219/XariaFrostByron/thailand/

itll be a while before their all up though (seeing asim in thailand til tuesday next weekish)

enjoy!

they think they;ve found the body of an incan in a viking grave in norway, 1000 years old.

if its true then wow.

http://www.aftenposten.no/english/local/article1856505.ece

Incan bones found in Østfold
Archeologists in Sarpsborg have found one thousand year old skeletal remains that appear to be Incan.

The skeletal remains were found during conservations work at St. Nicolas church in Sarpsborg, a city 73 kilometers (45 miles) southeast of Oslo, NRK (Norwegian Broadcasting) reports.

When archeologists were to move some rose bushes they made the surprising discovery of the remains of two older men and a baby.

"When we were about to take hold under the rose bush the skeletal remains slid out. It was quite surprising," Mona Beate Buckholm, archeologist at the Borgarsyssel Museum, told NRK.

One of the skulls had characteristics that indicate he was an Inca, the South American people centered in Peru.

"There is a bone in the neck that hasn't grown and this is an inherited characteristic only found among Inca Indians in Peru. This is sensational," Buckholm said.

The archeologists now plan to try and find out what the man was doing in Østfold, and how he came there.

yay! the graft worked! woooot. though i suspect i was lucky, tgat morning i woke up fevered and light headed, drpping sweat and a few hirs later injured a muscle so that every tme i breathed it felt like my lung was being knived.

then i had the chuzpah to wake in the middle of the sodding operation!

but still im a live. been 30 ish hrs it was done, no idea when exacty it ges out so i use the loo proper again and of course hang out in the lovely thai weather

does jess want a pressie? i hope because i wanna buy her one! but alas i dont know what:(

just in case anyone wantted to know. tomorrow i have my graft, otherwise known as part 2 of the op. ive been lying on a hard bed for....8 days now. nothwe 4-5 to go/

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Green

Your soul is painted the color green, which embodies the characteristics of youth, wealth, vigor, aggression, coldness, jealousy, greed, corruption, sincerity, hope, growth, stability, money, luck, prosperity, fertility, cooperation, employment, and healing. Green falls under the element of Earth, and symbolizes our planet's fertility as well as life itself.

jakoby rules. simm crap

nuff said

I MISS JESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wanna hug her. now!

sorry for not talking much. the crap with the asshole from the uni really threw me.

in good news im attached again:) lovely, smart, eccentric, gorgeous girl called shaz from exeter.

and im currently semi blonde.

im writing about camera stablisation and physics. inertia and all that.

today i learnt i will have to do programming in another assignment.

im scared and my brain is melting.

hmmm no serious bouts of self hating or being upset for a few days. this probly wont last but maybe its the anti-d's beginging to work. i even caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror a few days ago and thought 'i dont look bad!' so progress is made. in other news yesterday me and a friend spent a lt of time mocking boys by flashing each other and feeling each other up when they werent in the room and then telling them about it (and singing the word cunt over and over at everyone who entered)

my mums meeting richard o'brien maybe on wedneday. a friend got drunk and decidedi was a, sexy as fuck and b, all she wanted in a partner. She did manage to snog me a few times but i eventually got it through to her that if she felt like that when sober we could talk. since she hasent said anything about it im guessing it was the drink lol. i was dressed as the jon pertwee dr at the time and shes a docor who fan but i dont think that had anything to do with it.

filming a film on sat-sun.

i apparently have good tits. a friend of my little brothers wants to 'judge them properly' after seeing a pic of 2 of them fully clothed......

ill probly not be online much for the next few days. im off to stoke for a 3 day game of vampire the masquerade where my unpopular toreador character may die.

yay!

but im in a bad way. trust me

oh and A T's an asshole