My Diary of... something

jebus101@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 16:00:48 GMT

hour 22 of stronger than usual self hate, ive cut, ive slept and im trying to distract myself but nothings working. im supposed to be going out for a romancy meal with jess in a few hrs but i dont think i can, my moods too fractured. the slightest thing will set me off and im scared of just thinking about going out.

ive upset jess because she really wanted to go out.

useless useless useless. i shouldve cut a little further down and got my wrists.

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sat, 21 Jul 2007 13:53:23 GMT

jessikas sick:( very sickl :(:(

its like a bad flu and im in no shape to look after her. in fact she came over to visit to look after me because im still in the walking upstairs tires me out bit of srs recovery.

:( i wish i could do more for her

cries

jebus101@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Jul 2007 00:02:48 GMT

JESS COMES TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and she arrives for her week long visit too;)

me saw a kathoey cabaret

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sun, 08 Jul 2007 07:12:26 GMT

was beautifully wonderfuly camp.

PRETTTTTTTYYYYY

jebus101@hotmail.com — Fri, 06 Jul 2007 03:03:31 GMT

now like most people who have srs in thailand i decided to raise an evil army of giant lizards to try and take over the world.

i admit it....

jebus101@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 07:15:06 GMT

Has everything you could want. even silk skin. yuuuuuuuum

jebus101@hotmail.com — Mon, 02 Jul 2007 15:45:55 GMT

patong beach is cool. getting stithes out, not so much. but theres not been any problems, so yay!

having pub grub in an irish bar in thailand rules, near the top of the surrealism chart.

im debating whether to see a kick boxing match or see a ladyboy cabaret next time im in patong.

pix from thailand

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sun, 01 Jul 2007 17:54:36 GMT

their being uploaded to here

http://s6.photobucket.com/albums/y219/XariaFrostByron/thailand/

itll be a while before their all up though (seeing asim in thailand til tuesday next weekish)

enjoy!

inca- vikings connection?

jebus101@hotmail.com — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 16:23:46 GMT

they think they;ve found the body of an incan in a viking grave in norway, 1000 years old.

if its true then wow.

http://www.aftenposten.no/english/local/article1856505.ece

Incan bones found in Østfold
Archeologists in Sarpsborg have found one thousand year old skeletal remains that appear to be Incan.

The skeletal remains were found during conservations work at St. Nicolas church in Sarpsborg, a city 73 kilometers (45 miles) southeast of Oslo, NRK (Norwegian Broadcasting) reports.

When archeologists were to move some rose bushes they made the surprising discovery of the remains of two older men and a baby.

"When we were about to take hold under the rose bush the skeletal remains slid out. It was quite surprising," Mona Beate Buckholm, archeologist at the Borgarsyssel Museum, told NRK.

One of the skulls had characteristics that indicate he was an Inca, the South American people centered in Peru.

"There is a bone in the neck that hasn't grown and this is an inherited characteristic only found among Inca Indians in Peru. This is sensational," Buckholm said.

The archeologists now plan to try and find out what the man was doing in Østfold, and how he came there.

morenews

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sat, 23 Jun 2007 16:00:04 GMT

yay! the graft worked! woooot. though i suspect i was lucky, tgat morning i woke up fevered and light headed, drpping sweat and a few hirs later injured a muscle so that every tme i breathed it felt like my lung was being knived.

then i had the chuzpah to wake in the middle of the sodding operation!

but still im a live. been 30 ish hrs it was done, no idea when exacty it ges out so i use the loo proper again and of course hang out in the lovely thai weather

does jess want a pressie? i hope because i wanna buy her one! but alas i dont know what:(

hi

jebus101@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Jun 2007 15:37:26 GMT

just in case anyone wantted to know. tomorrow i have my graft, otherwise known as part 2 of the op. ive been lying on a hard bed for....8 days now. nothwe 4-5 to go/

what colour am i?

jebus101@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Jun 2007 14:19:13 GMT

[url=http://www.quiztron.com/tests/color_is_soul_painte_quiz_23687.htm]What color is your soul painted?[/url]

My Results:

[url=http://www.quiztron.com/tests/color_is_soul_painte_quiz_23687.htm][img]http://www.make-a-quiz.com/quiz_images/full_878034397.jpg[/img][/url]

Green

Your soul is painted the color green, which embodies the characteristics of youth, wealth, vigor, aggression, coldness, jealousy, greed, corruption, sincerity, hope, growth, stability, money, luck, prosperity, fertility, cooperation, employment, and healing. Green falls under the element of Earth, and symbolizes our planet's fertility as well as life itself.

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sun, 17 Jun 2007 14:09:21 GMT

jakoby rules. simm crap

nuff said

jebus101@hotmail.com — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 19:28:09 GMT

I MISS JESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wanna hug her. now!

hi

jebus101@hotmail.com — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 19:12:30 GMT

sorry for not talking much. the crap with the asshole from the uni really threw me.

in good news im attached again:) lovely, smart, eccentric, gorgeous girl called shaz from exeter.

and im currently semi blonde.

gah

jebus101@hotmail.com — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 21:20:41 GMT

im writing about camera stablisation and physics. inertia and all that.

today i learnt i will have to do programming in another assignment.

im scared and my brain is melting.

better

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Feb 2007 02:35:07 GMT

hmmm no serious bouts of self hating or being upset for a few days. this probly wont last but maybe its the anti-d's beginging to work. i even caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror a few days ago and thought 'i dont look bad!' so progress is made. in other news yesterday me and a friend spent a lt of time mocking boys by flashing each other and feeling each other up when they werent in the room and then telling them about it (and singing the word cunt over and over at everyone who entered)

whats up?

jebus101@hotmail.com — Tue, 13 Feb 2007 21:48:53 GMT

my mums meeting richard o'brien maybe on wedneday. a friend got drunk and decidedi was a, sexy as fuck and b, all she wanted in a partner. She did manage to snog me a few times but i eventually got it through to her that if she felt like that when sober we could talk. since she hasent said anything about it im guessing it was the drink lol. i was dressed as the jon pertwee dr at the time and shes a docor who fan but i dont think that had anything to do with it.

filming a film on sat-sun.

i apparently have good tits. a friend of my little brothers wants to 'judge them properly' after seeing a pic of 2 of them fully clothed......

weekend game

jebus101@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Feb 2007 21:29:21 GMT

ill probly not be online much for the next few days. im off to stoke for a 3 day game of vampire the masquerade where my unpopular toreador character may die.

yay!

sorry im not posting much

jebus101@hotmail.com — Sat, 27 Jan 2007 19:29:25 GMT

but im in a bad way. trust me

oh and A T's an asshole

today

jebus101@hotmail.com — Wed, 17 Jan 2007 00:22:16 GMT

nothing of note happened today

back in staffs tomorrow

jebus101@hotmail.com — Mon, 08 Jan 2007 00:52:31 GMT

my plane better not be late. im due to arrive in birmingham at 8, if its delayed by more than a few hrs im gonna have a.... interesting time getting back to stafford.

sarah and flo

jebus101@hotmail.com — Fri, 05 Jan 2007 00:26:14 GMT

sarahs ok! yay!:) i was worried there for a mo, but thenagain im always worried when a friends under the knife... such a wuss.

still chatting to flo from stoke over msn. she certainly seems to like me, i like her. be interesting to see what happens, if anything.

woot

jebus101@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 Jan 2007 16:21:58 GMT

In 2007, Xariabyron resolves to...

Buy new trans rights.
Get back in contact with some old horror movies.
Drink four glasses of romance every day.
Admit my true feelings to neonkandi.
Tell my family about corsets.
Pay for my hugs on time.

meh

jebus101@hotmail.com — Fri, 29 Dec 2006 14:20:55 GMT

tried to shop. failed. i feel trapped. i want to amputate pieces from my malformed body.